Lately I find myself trying to see the 'bigger picture'... I sit back and watch instead of getting involved or trying to 'help'. Not that I'm being lazy (I SO AM!) but I think it's a good time to re-evaluate and figure out what I really need to be putting 100% of my energy towards. Baby Tulip comes this week. We're ready. After that...I'm not so sure what I'll do... I think my 'walk on this beach' may be coming to an end. I think I'm ok with that.
No more stories. No more D*S*S drama. Just me and my family...living our lives. Finding a way to fill a gigantic hole that maybe just needs some time to heal. Hopefully, in time, the desire will fade and we'll look back to see that this was just a chapter in our lives where we were waiting for something better...only to find we already had all we could ever want.
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I hear your honesty and willingness to go a way that isn't maybe what you have always wished for. I pray that God would not only "fill" that hole but keep you at overflowing, no matter the outcome.
If it helps...I understand totally and completely. Although our journey thru this took different turns, intended & unintended, I think we are on the same path and the same time.
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