Visits and phone calls

Our first visit with bio mom was last Friday. She didn't come prepared and the visit ended early because Doodle was hungry.  Our second visit was yesterday. Bio mom was transported by the worker to and from the visit. Again, she didn't come prepared with a diaper bag or bottles. The visit is one hour but it is her responsibility to bring what her baby needs for the one hour she has to care to her.  Again, the visit ended early because Doodle was hungry and fussy. Bio mom also requested that we only have 2 visits a week instead of 3 because 3 is just too much for her. She also was given 3 phone calls a week and has already missed the first one on Sunday night. Tonight is the next one. We'll see if she follows through. 

Doodle is settling in well. Eating and sleeping good and her reflux is pretty much under control. She's making great eye contact most of the time. This baby has been through so much and I have nothing but compassion for her. 

Still here...

And it looks like she'll be staying a while. Doodle left us on March 31 after being with us for 3 weeks for preventive respite. Her mother didn't request to see her once. Rules are that after 21 days child is returned to parent. The respite can only last up to 21 days. Well, Doodle left us and ended up with a 'family friend' for 2 weeks. When this 'friend' could no longer take care of her she called county services. Doodle is officially I'm foster care. Visits are set up for 3 days a week at one hour intervals. She also gets 'phone calls' per the new judge. She's 5 months old. She's settling in well. 

Doodle is back...

But I don't know how long she'll be here. She is considered 'in care' but I guess we'll know the truth tomorrow after court. 

Gone :(

Doodle was picked up yesterday morning. I have concerns about her well being but I am trusting God to keep her in His hands. I texted bio mom this morning and Doodle had a well check and shots. She said she was fussy. Praying bio mom enjoyed her 'break' and bonds with her baby. 

Leaving tomorrow...again.

Doodle has stayed her 21 day respite and is leaving tomorrow. Even though bio mom hasn't requested to see her at all during the last 3 weeks. Doodle is so content, smiling and we've even established what seems like a routine.  She has become so comfortable here that she can now fall asleep in my arms. Now she's leaving...for the 3rd time. My heart breaks thinking that she might feel I've abandoned her. Bio mom posted on social media that she's 'in a relationship' because SHE needs to be 'treated like a princess'.  Her baby girl spent her very first Easter with me...a virtual stranger. She was here for Valentines Day last month too. I'm scared for her but I have no choice but to hand her over to the preventive worker tomorrow. Please keep this sweet baby girl in your prayers. 

*posted on Friday morning...was supposed to post Wednesday night. She left Thursday morning.