So I think we need to come up with an internet name for this baby boy so I don't have to keep typing "baby boy". I think that Felix is a good name because my 4 year old thinks that he should be called this anyway. SO, it seems that Felix's grandfather is calling the caseworker quite often. I think that if he was so intent on having Felix placed with him that he should get in his car and drive the 5 hours and come see him. It has also come to light that Felix's grandmother wants him too...but not for herself. She wants him for someone else. This world is screwed up! So the reality of Felix leaving really set in last night. I can't imagine him leaving but as I've said before I know that God has a plan. Both of these grandparents would have to meet certain standards provided by the state in order to have Felix live with them. Many things have to be in order. Health, finances, and their criminal histories have to be crystal clear. I am really having to dig deep for faith to get me through this. My 'plan' to 'fix' this is by talking to the caseworker and asking her to go to bio mom and tell her that we are really enjoying having the baby here and he's doing really well settling in. If he goes to live with either of the grandparents she will not have visits with him. (Not that she comes to visits anyway!) I think by asking her this we might ensure him staying here and if he's here for 12 months we gain just as much right as a grandparent. So in a way I am kind of being selfish. I just can't see him going to live with a grandfather who's probably older and not ready to deal with all the issues a newborn baby brings. Reflux, getting up at night, inconsolable crying, diaper rash...the list could go on and on. Felix is a wonderful baby. I'm sure if his grandfather is fighting this hard to get him he's aware of the sleepless nights and the spitting up. New health issues have come up with Felix. I wonder if grandfather would still be willing if he knew. As you can tell I am SO impatient. It's impossible for me to sit back and wait and see what happens. More soon...