I can't decide if we're supposed to be done. The last 2 calls didn't work out and my dream call, for NB twin boys out of the hospital, didn't work out. My house is bursting at the seems with baby gear. Our family is in such a great place right now. Sprout is such a blast and my older kids are all in school. I don't have to ask permission to go on trips or get anyone's hair cut. No court drama. No case workers stopping by unannounced... I could go on and on.
But.
There's still a desire to be a resource for kids in crisis. There's still the desire to snuggle a baby who'd otherwise not get the love and attention he/she deserves. There's still this crazy desire to keep going. So, for now, I'll stay on the roller coaster. Even though it's not moving right now. It's pretty obvious our 'stop' hasn't come yet.
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Oh how you have voiced the thought running through my head. I can't stand the fact that I have all this "stuff" to take care of another baby. BUT, unlike you, I know our time has come to an end. In our county your home is "full" at 5. We 6 for almost a whole year the year that rule came into effect. Then for one year we have sat at 5 waiting for our 3 year, never-ending case to come to a close. Then, they call us with #6. We have to have a waiver. Oh the craziness I have been through over the past 6 weeks. Not.worth.it.at.all! As another friend and foster mom put it to me.....it took getting "slapped in the face", more than onece, to realize, that indeed, we are done.
Once M's case closes and #6 joins her siblings, we will be closing our home. I will gladly spread all my baby stuff to my foster momma friends who are still in the trenches.
When you truly do foster care for the "right" reasons, it is so hard to close your home. All you want to do is love and protect a child! So glad God gave us 23....23 names and faces I will never forget! 3 of those are forever my children.....God is so good!
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