I've come a long way.  I used to find myself afraid of the pain I'd be in if I lost my sweet boy.  I now find myself afraid of how I'll 'let go' when it's time for him to go to school or scrapes he'll get on the soccer field.  I got a call from the county worker and she said that paternal grandma definitely does not want to take on a baby right now AND she has been encouraging the donor bio dad to surrender his rights also.  I just can't stop smiling. 

Home finder called and asked if we'd take a special needs baby girl.  She will be here tomorrow.  More on that later....