I was reading about Abraham. {Genesis 22:1-19} I can kind of relate to the whole Abraham and Sarah story.  Waiting for a child...thinking it's impossible...   Anyway, when God told Abraham to sacrifice Isaac, the bible doesn't say if Abraham answered God or if he had any kind of reaction to what told him to do.  He just got up early the next morning, saddled his donkey, took 2 young servants, and split wood for the burnt offering.  It took 3 days for Abraham to find the place that God told him about.  Can you imagine what must have been going through Abraham's mind in those 3 days!?!? I am in tears just thinking about how that kind of loss would affect me.  I would have argued with God and pleaded but it doesn't say WHAT Abraham thought.  Did he trust God from the start?  Did his faith GROW over those 3 days?  Can you imagine what it must have felt like to look at his son for that journey?  It goes on to tell us that when they arrived at the mountain...Abraham told his servants "Stay here with the donkey.  The boy and I are going over to worship; then WE'LL come back to you". 

WE'LL come back to you. 
WE WILL come back to you. 

Abraham KNEW that Isaac would be coming back with him.  He trusted God but KNEW he'd be back with his son.  He had faith in God and His promises.  I need this faith.  I need this trust in God.  I need it. I look at Sprout and only can see the dreams we had for him.  I ask God HOW he could ask me to let him go?  I need to trust that God's plans are much bigger than mine are.  I need to believe this with ALL I have. 
The story goes on to say that Abraham and Isaac went up the mountain and Isaac asked his father "We have flint and wood but where's the sheep for the burnt offering?"  Abraham answered "God will see to it that there's a sheep for the offering".  Abraham built and altar, laid out the wood and tied Isaac down and took up the knife to kill his son. 
In that last moment, and angel of God called out and told Abraham to put the knife down.  You know the rest of the story...  I have read and re-read this over and over again trying to understand how deep Abraham's trust in God must have been.  I know there would have been a battle in my mind because that's what I'm going through now.  Do I trust God enough to let Sprout go!?  Am I only trusting Him in hopes that He won't ask me to let him go?  If Sprout goes home, does that mean God is any less faithful?  Can I still trust Him with my deepest desires, hopes and dreams?  My answer is yes.  I know that His ways are higher than my ways and that even in the storm I am in
{right now}, if I keep my eyes on Him, I KNOW the waves of doubt and disbelief will NOT pull me under. 

I KNOW that He is faithful.
I KNOW that He is trustworthy.