You'd think after a few days of no blogging I'd be back with some new and exciting news...not so much. I am still struggling with the fact that these boys are leaving but trying (desperately) to focus on helping them heal. Some days are easier than others. I have seriously thought of cleaning out the storage of little boys clothes that I have and coming to terms with the fact that it's just not God's will for us. That's a HARD pill for me to swallow...but I have no choice. I know HE has good things for me so I try (very hard) not to focus on what I DON'T have...but wholly embrace what I do have. I have seen recent pictures of Baby 'C', Felix and Daisy and it makes my heart happy to see them thriving. I take NO credit for who these little ones are today because they are ALL in loving, stable environments. It is crazy to think that Daisy only left us 3 months ago. She looks wonderful. We miss her but we are ALL sure that we made the best decision for her. Arizona and Lil' Man have started daycare. The director said they did well. Aside from when they are together...they do REALLY well. I LOVE the smiles when I go to pick them up. It gives me the break that I need while helping them adjust to being around other kids their age. It's great that the daycare has a low summer enrollment. The boys are able to get more one on one attention that they so desperately crave. Last week I had the privilege of meeting the boys' mom. For blog anonymity's sake I'll call her Hope. Only because I'm holding out much hope that a few months from now I'll be sending these boys back to her arms...for good. This will be the first time I have given a child back to their bio parent. I have tried to encourage Hope to focus on her own healing. I still see progress daily with the boys and I do have concerns that they might regress now that visits start. Time will tell. For now we focus on the upcoming events like 1st days of school and fall shopping. For those of you who know me, you KNOW how much I enjoy shopping 'BLUE'. :) More soon...