Baby Tulip is here. I understand a bit more (possibly) why God would choose to hold of on blessing us with boys right now. Sweet Baby Tulip is a bit of a DrAmA QuEEn!!! (A women after my own heart!) I have tried to imagine what she's been through these past few weeks and I would cry too. From her birth mom to a foster mom to daycare to me. A bit much for an infant. She is settled in for the night and I'm looking forward to the rest of the weekend. I have had to keep reminding myself that God makes no mistakes. I'm trying to be ok with that. We lost Daisy. We put our 5 year old dog to sleep 10 days later. Saturday, my grand dad was diagnosed with Stage 3 colon cancer and tonight he just had a major heart attack. I missed a call that I thought I was waiting for (this morning)... Seriously?!?! Can I really take much more of this??? I'm trying hard to trust Him and believe that He is holding me. It's hard to see through my tears....