I know that God has a reason for our house to be 'empty' right now. I am truly enjoying getting things done without the emotional drama that foster care brings. The dreams and plans that I have for a little boy who I have yet to meet...oh, they're still there. I am really learning to trust God more and more each day. We say that this 'walk' is like a roller coaster but no one ever mentions that we choose to ride. I know that we can be 'let off' whenever we ask. I remember the night we were called for Daisy. The excitement of a new little one in the house was more than we could handle. Shopping for diapers, bottles and clothes was fun but waking up to this precious little face was amazing. I have had enough of sleeping in and doing what I want when I want it. I'm ready to hear "you have your hands full" again. But only God truly knows what I want and what's best for me. So, for now, I'm still waiting for that phone to ring. But while I wait I am getting things done. Many are the plans in the heart of a man but it is God's will that will prevail. :)