It has been a while since we've had a call for the placement of a child. I'm actually ok with that. It's much easier to wait than to have to say no. To be honest, occasionally I DO find myself WAITING for the phone to ring. But seriously, sometimes I put the kids on the bus and go straight back to BED! My husband calls it depression...I call it using time wisely. :) Anyway, there are times that I daydream about the 'call'. But right now I'm just trying to find 'myself' again. We've had toddlers in the house for the past 4 years and it's taking a while to remember what to do with all the 'me' time. My hubby and I have many lunch dates or conversations that are uninterrupted...and times like that are PRICELESS. I have had numerous {one-sided} conversations with God about how awesome it will be when He FINALLY fills this desire. I have told numerous people about how I firmly believe that God has given me this desire to adopt and how I FIRMLY believe that HE WILL fulfill it. I have used EVERY opportunity in our adoption journey to tell people about my faith in God and how HE ALONE has brought me through the HARDEST times in my life. I think my testimony is pretty amazing. I can only wait to add to it when we finally DO adopt. Sometimes I try to 'explain' to God how HE'LL receive ALL the glory when we adopt because SO MANY people are following us on this adoption journey. I have a VERY specific list of requirements and this child {I believe} will fit PERFECTLY!!! I know that God can go above and beyond ANYTHING I can EVER imagine. I serve a BIG GOD! So, really. I'm not worried that the phone hasn't been ringing. Even if it doesn't. Ever. I'm ok. I KNOW that God has good things planned for us.