Have you ever had to make a split second decision that you KNEW you might regret...for the rest of your life??? I had to turn down a placement today. I've second guessed myself since I hung up the phone. A 4 year old boy. Removed from mom, placed with dad.
Now taken from dad and put into care. Drugs. Aut*i*sm, P*D*D...scary stuff. It sounds like it might have ended with adoption. But I'm not sure if we could handle those things. The clothes I have stocked here only go up to 3T and the toddler bed is gone. We are more ready for a baby. But I can't stop thinking of the difference I could have made. I pray that God sends this boy to a home where he will ALWAYS know that he is treasured and loved...I hate saying no but I know my limits. We couldn't handle another "Arizona" right now. I know that God has a plan and I am praying He gives me peace in this decision.
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Remember the guidelines you prayerfully set up with your hubs. It's SO hard when they call (Thursday they got 11 new kids in from a meth bust and we had to do the same thing). When the time is right, we'll be SO glad we stuck to our guns! Way to be strong.
Thanks Chica! I just wish I wasn't SO torn. I feel like I'm sitting here {rotting} while I could be doing SO much good. I keep thinking 'that might have been our adoption situation.' But you're right. I have a list of requirements for our next placement. The only thing that fit about this call was that he was a boy. I have been praying non- stop for this little one and I know that I was called for a reason...even if only to pray!! I know HE HAS to have something BIG up His sleeve. I am willing to wait. Thanks for the encouragement!!! :)
i feel the same way every time i say no. but, after a while I am usually glad i did.
I admire you and what you are doing so much. I cannot imagine having to decide.
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