Change. The next few weeks will definitely be different around here. I know that in order for a tree to bloom it needs to loose it's leaves. Seasons. It seems that this season with our sweet Daisy will soon come to an end. DSS has found her a family. I am so excited for her but it is so bittersweet. Right now, to get through each day, all I can do is pray that God shows me a piece of the bigger picture. If what I'm doing will truly make a difference...it will be worth it. When Baby 'C' left us in April of 2007 the girls were too young to understand why but old enough to say goodbye. Now, here we are almost 2 years later and they're asking we why we can't keep her. The words taste like vomit coming out of my mouth but it's because we want boys. Selfish. She is a perfectly healthy baby girl without the 'right' parts. So we're giving her up. Selfish. All because I want a boy. But then the voice of reason sets in. She is not 'the one' for us. She was placed here at this point in time to get the love and sense of belonging that she needed to one day thrive WITH HER FOREVER FAMILY. We did that. There's the bigger picture. I know God's grace is on this house during this time of transition. I feel it. I know something bigger is coming. I'll wait. However long.