To be completely honest with you...I have no clue who reads this blog. If any of you have adopted, through the foster care system or otherwise, please let me know how it worked for you, how long it took and if you'd do it again. Today we went and met with a reputable adoption agency hoping that we'd leave with some definite answers. If anything, I am even MORE discouraged than ever. I am questioning myself and my limitations. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this. I really wanted my girls to have a brother. That's why we started fostering to begin with. We have been blessed to have the opportunity to foster these babies that have come through our home and the privilege has been amazing. But knowing the 'end' of our journey through this system might leave us without a baby boy to love forever...that thought is something I can't live with. I have thought about how it would be if we stopped fostering. What would that leave us with? We started fostering with hopes of adoption. Knowing full well that one family would have to be broken to make our family complete was very hard to come to terms with. Knowing that it would be the other families actions that put their child in my home made it a bit easier. Our caseworker has not been very helpful in listening to our concerns but in all reality he doesn't work for us. Where else do I go? The agency was pretty clear that the number of children we have in our home only leaves us with the option of finding our own 'birth*mom'. We have told almost everyone we know (and some strangers) that we are hoping to adopt. I have waited almost 4 years and...NOTHING. So please, if you have had a positive foster to adopt or adoption experience...please let me know. Right now, I need all the encouragement I can get. I'm about ready to give up. :*(